Today, my heart broke.
For the past few days, Tag had been dry heaving here and there. I called the vet yesterday and they said it just sounded like a hair ball and to give him some hair ball release.
This morning, I woke up to Tag as I always do, but this time, after he dry heaved, he was breathing heavily. I was immediately worried. I tried the hairball release, but then I called my mom for help. She came out and helped me take him to the emergency vet down the street. We thought it was an infection. We were wrong.
Tag was full of cancerous fluid. His abdomen and most of his lungs were full of it. There was nothing we could do and instead of make him suffer, I opted to have him put to sleep. We stayed with him and petted him and loved him and said our good-byes as I balled my eyes out and he went to sleep for the last time.
The emergency vet was very thorough, caring, and understanding and I will be forever grateful for that. He’s being cremated and I’ll be getting his ashes back in a week or two.
I miss my sweet boy already. I’m no longer greeted at the door with meows and him flopping on his back to have his belly rubbed. He’s not constantly shadowing me or getting into mischief. He’s not meowing and talking. I still wished I would have gotten his talking on video. He was the most unique cat I’ve ever known and when he died, he took a piece of my heart with him. There will never be another kitty like him. I’m going to miss waking up tomorrow with him booping me in the nose and following me around while I get ready for work.
Perky has begun to look for him. She knows something is wrong and she’s been extra lovey today. I know we’ll make it through this. I love Perky to pieces as well. She’s going to really miss him, though. No more kitty kisses and help from him to clean her face. Still, I’m glad she’s being so lovey and keeping an eye on me.
Anyway, I think it’s time for me to go lay down for the night. RIP, Tag, my sweet boy. You will be forever loved and forever missed. </3